"Even on my wedding day I didn't feel near as confident and beautiful as I did leaving the studio"| Boudoir Photography Interview with Erika

How old were you at your session?27

What made you decide to book a session?When a friend added me to the facebook group I was envious of the beautiful women I was seeing! I so strongly desired to radiate with confidence as they did. From a young age I was down trodden about how I looked and felt in my own skin. After gaining over 100lbs in the last couple of years, I was at an all time low. Yet, I had no reason to focus on myself or the esteem issues I had, so they were swept hastily under the rug every time they reared their ugly heads. Four months ago I gave birth to my beautiful daughter. I spent many nights awake wondering how in the hell was I going to teach her to love and be kind to herself when I couldnt look at myself in the mirror without feeling shame and disgust. So I started myself on a journey of self love, care, and worth. I worked on things important to me and put myself first. I had made quite some progress when Jes sent out the boudie call for the bridal veil. I knew that was my chance to get in on the action! I poured my heart out to Jes and Emily and they picked me! If that burst of confidence didnt sway me I don't know what did!

What was originally holding you back from booking a session?Honestly, two things were holding me back equally and pretty heavily might I add. The monetary investment seemed out of reach and my extreme lack of confidence made the idea of leaving myself so exposed very daunting.

What were you most nervous about for your session?I was so scared that I wouldnt find clothes that flattered my body, that the inspiration hair/ make up pins I was in love with wouldn't appeal to my features, and mostly that when all was said and done I would hate my pictures and diminish all the progress I had made in becoming more self loving.

How did you feel about yourself before your session?For the first time in my life I was accepting of my body and looks. I wasnt where I wanted to be (and still am not) but I was ready to attempt to see myself the way my husband does. Strong, beautiful, and sexy.

Describe your experience.When I found out that I was chosen for the boudie call I was elated! I immediately began searching for looks and clothes and emails from Jes and Emily with any little smidgen of information they would feed me. Which, by the way, they give very specific direction and have a knack for answering questions before you even need to ask them. Anywho, so day of super nervous right? Leaving baby for really the first time, not knowing exactly how the day will pan out. I had a few outfits with me, and a couple hair and make up ideas screenshoted on my phone. As soon as I walked in the door I was greated with Emilys smiling face and the nerves just went away. She showed me the outfits they pulled for me and gave me a chance to try them on. When Jes came I kind of explained the looks I was trying to go for and laid out the outfits I liked from the closet and the ones I had brought. After getting some opinions I ended up using all the outfits I brought. Not to discredit the closet in any way, there are hundreds of gorgeous things to wear and I loved many of them! I just really liked the things I had. Next came hair and makeup. The radio played upbeat music while Emily turned me into the vision I had in my head! I hadn't ever seen myself so done up before, I couldnt believe it. Emily also made sure I was completely satisfied with every detail! Cue Jes and the photos begin! She took the time to model each pose and show me how to move my body in just the right way. Seriously so much fun with each new outfit and pose. I was disappointed that the day seemed to end so quickly. Had four hours really passed? I kept saying in my head, "Come on just one more outfit!" I was like a five year old that didn't want to leave the park!

How did you feel about yourself after your session?Sexy! I had so much pep in my step as I walked out the door. Even on my wedding day I didn't feel near as confident and beautiful as I did leaving the studio. It was so refreshing to feel this great in my own skin! Truely show'd me that it was possible for me to love myself, and made me want to work that much harder on my journey to try and feel like this more and more every day!

Were you nervous before your viewing session?Yes!!!

How did you feel about yourself after seeing your photos?I was in shock. Some pictures I loved so much I had a hard time believing they were me! I maybe have 3 pictures in my whole life where I'm actually laughing and I hate them all. For the first time ever I was smitten with my laugh face and couldn't wait to see it printed! I couldn't wait to show all the pictures to my husband. It was a first for me. A game changer!

What were your favorite products?The 8×8 books and the view finder

What would you tell anyone interested, but maybe hesitant, in book a session of their own?Do it! It's soooo worth it!

How was working with Jes and Emily?Fantastic! They are super professional and passionate about what they do, and it shows in their work. They're so down to earth and funny. Just really swell gals!

Will you be doing another session?Man I hope so!!