"I THANK Jes and Emily... not for putting makeup on me or letting me know what I was falling out of top but for capturing a part of me that I don't see that often"| Duluth Boudoir Interview with Laura

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How old were you at your session?31

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What made you decide to book a session?
I booked during the Black Friday Sale. Over the past year or so I have seen so many amazing photos of woman through the Facebook group that it hipnotized me and I just booked!

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What was originally holding you back from booking a session?
Truthfully vanity was holding me back. Its hard to get yourself out of that negative mindset over our bodies. Over the past few years my body has gone through drastic changes inside and out. I have undergone 28 surgeries over the past two years I my abdominal/pelvis area and am fitted with an Ostomy Bag (Judy) for life. During this time I have ranged from 89lbs to 200lbs and back down to a comfortable weight. So my view of my body wasn't always positive or grateful and I was very self conscious about my scars and Judy!

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What were you most nervous about for your session?
I work out but I wouldn't call myself athletic by any means and I am also always in a significant amount of chronic pain. So I was nervous about not being able to do a pose and look graceful.

How did you feel about yourself before your session?
Funny thing is, I'm not a shy person but sometimes life throws you experiences and words that leave a sting and change how/what you allow people to see you. I felt like the girl who would *sometimes* be comfortable being herself but held back more often then not.

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Describe your experience.
Like others I wanted to puke as soon as I woke up that morning but with kind words from friends I got in my car with no makeup and drove over the bridge. As soon as I walked in I knew I would be okay. Beautiful studio (even under construction) with two warm and inviting woman who had already pulled items for me to try on. After I chose 4 outfits from the huge closet, I sat for makeup and hair with my slippers and a blanket on listening to girl power music. It was a treat! Emily did a great job with my makeup and made sure I liked everything before I got dressed. The actual shoot felt like it went by fast... Jes directed me on every pose and adjusted me when needed. I was able to take breaks too. I ended up not loving my last outfit when I came to it, so they both helped me find something new that I loved! This experience was comfortable, exciting, shocking, and pampering! I LOVED IT!

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How did you feel about yourself after your session?
I got back into my car and was pumped. I turned up my music and went and got a taco. I felt accomplished! I did something I wasn't sure I could do and had the hair and makeup to prove it! I felt like no matter what people see of me they are going to choose what they want to think anyways so why not put out who I want to today; sexy, purple hair, 31yo, with a lot of baggage that doesn't care what negative comments you have.

Were you nervous before your viewing session?Yes I was nervous! Jes showed me maybe three shots she taken while shooting but I had no idea what they would look like on the viewing screen.

How did you feel about yourself after seeing your photos?
The excitement of my shoot day had dwindled a little... until I saw my photos. Then I was back on fire! It was me but it also wasn't who I see everyday! I have never seen myself like that yet, I knew Jes had captured Laura. I was so excited. I went straight home after my viewing session, opened my viewing email and looked at every image for a good 5 min. Like I said, I'm not a shy person but I do feel more confident in who I am currently.

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What were your favorite products?Luxe album was one of my favorite! I was far too concerned about actually choosing a limited number of photos soooo I went with the Hairloom Box!

What would you tell anyone interested, but maybe hesitant, in book a session of their own?
Just do it! It's an experience for yourself that you will never forget. There wasn't one picture that I wasn't captivated by in some way! It's not about sex, its about finding that part of you that isn't scared of being vulnerable and coming out the other side feeling proud!

How was working with Jes and Emily?
I THANK Jes and Emily... not for putting makeup on me or letting me know what I was falling out of top but for capturing a part of me that I don't see that often. For me building up and letting ME overflow out of a picture that I will always have. They were positive, welcoming, supportive but also real and they weren't just feeding me lines. Jes and Emily really wanted to give me a great experience and produce an end product that I would be proud of.

Will you be doing another session?Oh yes! I plan to do one early 2019

Anything else you want to add?
So grateful to myself that I did this!